So Nikko is probably one of the happiest babies I've ever known. Always smiling, laughing at just about everything, babbling about who knows what. He is the light of our lives.
He's also obsessed with Mickey Mouse and gets overly excited when he sees him.
Today I received the phone call from anesthesia for his surgery for the pre evaluation questions and to go over what will happen the day of the surgery.
And then I had a panic attack.
I knew it was coming, but hearing what was going to happen made it real. And I've been hysterical all day. Being that I've been though a very tragic event in my life and lost someone very close to me, I have very little faith in hospitals. I understand CHOP is a very great hospital and this surgery is considered minor, I can't help but think I'm the one case that ends badly. My luck is on the bad end of the spectrum and my mind is really making me worry and over think.
I would appreciate any advice/support/reassurance about my feelings, the surgery, or what to expect.
I hope everyone has a happy and safe holiday.
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